i think ive never spent so much time and paper and ink on a single assignment before...being high on oxygen comes with a high price to pay man... the hours spent planning it out.. the even more hours spent doing a crazy number of dry runs and a terribly large amount of time spent looking over pages and pages of words trying to perfect the proposal.. making sure nothing is left out.. and after goodness knows how many hours and when i think im finally done..my printer runs out of ink and i realise im short of paper.. and then today when i wana go to the sch lib to print it i find that my rewrited cd doesnt work (like..??!!!?!?!) how am i ever gonna have faith in rewrited cds ever again =P after finally printing it out.. i looked through the wdt once again and surprise surprise i found that i managed to forget something.. lol.. this whole orientation has just been really tough and sometimes i really wonder if the trememdous amount of effort spent preparing for orientation is really worth it. its jus orientation after all.. and lol..the stuff we do doesnt even really have much to do with our normal activities.. taking each dry run as an activity for each week and of course the actual o1 & o2 as an activity too... thats 6 whole weeks of planning for 2 weeks worth of "fun" .. its almost an entire term for orientation!!! where's the sense in that man... think im sounding really jaded here..but ahh thats just what i feel at this point in time.. maybe on saturday i'll change my mind and think it was all worth it =P maybe not. whatever it is.. come friday im not sure how im going to feel.. most probably i'll be wringing my wrists off and with some luck i'll wake up on time on saturday and be prepared for a rough day ahead.. at 6pm i'll be so lightheaded maybe i'll float away.. provided everything goes well and i really do hope it does coz after doing whatever we can to plan for it i'll really be kinda upset if some major trauma happens.. as of now there's still quite a lotta loose ends to tie up and ahh its gonna be nothing but oxygen on my mind for the next few days to come... tomorrow's registration for odac.. wonder how the turn out will be.. quoting biao..wonder if 1st 3mths was fun enough for them to come back for another round =P haha.. if they found it fun at all..i feel like we didnt really do much in 1st 3 months... hmmm we'll see Thing of the day!!!~ ODAC .. honestly the best cca in sajc =P i still love it no matter what.. hahaha. im biased btw..

so right i spend my whole holiday studying... and im not lying when i mean the whole entire holiday..n i prepare as much as i can the day before the exam..but evidently thats not enough.. not enough to make me feel as though i managed to do the papers satisfactorily and i dont even know if its enough to pass it . its so annoying that after u put in effort you dont feel the effort paying off at all!! maybe its the way i study..don't study smart enough.. but still u would expect it to help right.. argh u know this holiday was really like no other holiday ive ever had. first time i had zero plans.. and i was totally set to just stay at home and study. i planned to stay at home to study during the holidays!!! goodness gracious me.. urrghh.. thats not a holiday man thats a studyday!! but then again putting the exams before the hols would have be a disaster..f, double f, triple f, quadruple f.. wha.. feel the Fs man..lol..so maybe now i'll get less one F.. or smth.. ahh this sucks.. ive run out of steam =P lets talk about smth which will make me feel better.. Thing of the day!!!~ Going to town n feeling totally guilt-free about wasting all that time away .. haha went to town with shu n lor n ting to 'celebrate' the end of the darned block test ..spent the longest time ever taking neoprints and then went to eat sakae buffet.. omg i havent felt that full for like goodness knows how long..and then walked around fareast..saw weiying at fareast!! ahh nice seeing ya man!! =D along the way i saw a super super cute guy!!!he looks like utt!!! ahhh!!! and a drop dead gorgeous car... a black lexus sports car.. and i did another dumb thing again.. smth to do with long gold things.. hah shant elaborate =P and hey i bought a nice pair of thin, flat hoop earring all for the really low cost of 5 dollars! haha ..by and large its been a fun day =D =P

the easiest day of the blocks is over.. the most dreadful looms jus about 27 hours away... maths and biology on the same day...uggghh its always bio and some other subject together!!..actually any 2 subjects on the same day would be just as bad but thats not the point.. haha the point is that there's 2 subs which need tons of prep on the same day!!!actually any other subject would also needs lots of prep but thats not the point..haha.. =P doesnt help that ive got a phobia of maths and bio is just killer mugger cram or die.. its like there's so much to study i dont feel like starting.. hahaha..sigh Thing of the day!!!~Day: Wednesday 1030am

songs which make me wish i knew how to play the panio canon in d - pachabel eyes on me - final fantasy viii soundtrack someone like me - atomic kitten 100 years - five for fighting Thing of the day!!!~The 2Nite show on power 98 with JA and soo ... ahh love radio from 9 to 12!!! they play good music and the djs are actually funny!!! =D unlike a certain dj on p10 with a similiar time slot... uhh.. i refuse to listen to her show..

Thing of the day!!!~TV show: Buffy the Vampire Slayer!!!! ahh i think its the last season... aiii am gonna be so sad when its over...

haha guess what.. i won the album permission to land by darkness from jean danker while supposedly studying in the cafe this afternoon.. hahahahaha she was playing the rocking record of the week and i was like hmm hey lets try to win something.. then after a few tries actually got through and viola man... free cd on the way..said hi to carol and winnie who were sitting next to me on air.. aahahaha and ahh kap ppl i dedicated to u all too!!!!couldnt stop laughing for a while there.. hahaha anyway why cant i win the reallyy good stuff.. like albums which i reallly want or tickets to events.. and not jus some random stuff.. hahaha im not complaining coz heyy who doesnt like free stuff.. its jus u know.. =P anyway.. had a 3 hour maths mass tutorial in the morning..nearly killed myself over trying to do the maths papers on monday n tuesday..it helped me out quite a bit...i think/hope.. ahhh i suck so much at maths but i hope i suck less now =P studied in the cafe later on... did macroecons..tried to comprehend it..and after the disgustingly large amount of time spent on it i actually understand the stuff.. now gotta work on how to answer the real questions.. ugghh theres so much to be done n so little time... whats worse is that very little that gets done even tho i actually spend a lot of time out of that very little time that i have to work on it.. arrgghhh..whyyy..whhyy!! Thing of the day!!!~ winning stuff from radio stations =D

Thing of the day!!!~sweet cold seedless purple grapes

mimi: touch me and youre dead drew: i'll touch you only to make sure that you are dead!!! ~the drew carey show ahahaha that is so mean... went trekking from bk timah to mc ritchie yesterday.. was late coz of a really DUMB reason.. uugghh .... =P haha and am aching now... which is terrible coz its only a trek gee and im supposed to be able to take it man!!! trekked a new route for once so hey it was pretty fun..went to nus open house in the afternoon.. am more sure than ever that i really dont know what to do.. hahahaha irony =P hahaha its currently a peaceful sunday night but exactly one week from now i'll be panicking my lungs out and freaking out over the block test..feeling like crap in other words..and typical the day before any major exam. hopefully one week of studying is going to be enough to prep me up for bt1.. really do hope to do respectably well for it coz while ive lowered my standards to accepting that failing tests are ok, ultimately doing well for exams is still really important to me.. plus if i dont do well i think my ct is really going to force me to drop a subject... something which i really dont wana do even though many people have asked me to consider it.. right now.. im feeling kinda relaxed even though i should be starting to feel a lil more wound up over the exams...but maybe relaxed is good coz feeling stressed up will only cause unnecessary distress right.. hopefully momentum will build up over the next few days n i'll be able to mug it all in..hopefully i'll be able to concentrate and hopefully i wont waste the week away.. hopefully i'll do well for bt1 ..i should go study now.. if you dont see me blogging frequently for the next 2 weeks.. tts a good sign... haha Thing of the day!!!~ writers: sumiko tan & colin goh. i love reading their personal colums every fortnight in lifestyle...read it and you'll know why... actually read the whole newspaper today..havent done tt in ages and it was kinda fun.. hahaha shows how unoften i read e papers.. =P but i know tts bad and i resolve to change for the better =P hahaha.. serious!!

Somewhere over the rainbow - Judy Garland Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high, There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow Skies are blue, And the dreams that you dare to dream Really do come true. Someday I'll wish upon a star And wake up where the clouds are far Behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops Away above the chimney tops That's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow Bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow. Why then, oh why can't I? If happy little bluebirds fly Beyond the rainbow Why, oh why can't I? Thing of the day!!!~nice yellow markers which double up as highlighters.. and its not the icky flourescent yellow..

synapses is by far the most boring topic in bio.. hardly paid any attention during all the lectures on it simply because it was impossible to.. when i tried to listen.. i would just fall asleep unknowlingly n when i tried to read the textbook just now... i fell asleep after reading a few paragraphs!!! arghh!!! i tell u this topic is enchanted with a sleeping spell =P

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qn:what would i be without God ... yesterday was cool.. o2 dry run went pretty well.. went to celeb ivans bday at cafe cartel n it was a blast =D aunt amys chewy chocolate fudge cake is the ultimate man!!!! im feeling a lot more relaxed now and i really thank God for every thing...coz i know that hes the one who puts everything in place.. looking back on the past few days.. it made me realise how important God is to me.. when everything was cropping up and i was jus soo busy with stuff.. i was scrambling in between things here and there trying to settle everything and as a result i didnt have time for God as i tried to do things myself.. then i got a note from someone really special and suddenly it all made sense to me..(thanks shirley =) ) how could i leave out God in whatever i was doing... now.. everythings a lot better and no doubt.. all glory is to be given to God. Thing of the day!!!~ ans: Absolutely nothing

not exhausted cos im lazy and lazyness causes u to slack, not totally stressed out cos there's no point stressing, not exactly overworked cos i just dont do a lot of work, not exactly depressed coz im not one who gets depressed easily .. but a whole mixture of bits of these and when u mix it up nice and smooth.. u get a rather big mess.. schoolworks as tough as ever. impossible to be ahead of anything.odac is a really huge responsiblity and it takes up a whole chunk of my time. im not complaining coz odac is probably one of the best things that happened to me in sajc and i do feel that time spent doing odac stuff is worth it. but that doest mean that i dont feel worn out by the incredible amount of time and effort put into it.. to put it simply.. i love it so much that i give up so much for it and in the end that causes me to love it a little less..espicially now with o2 and all..im just so blah all the time.. today's been a dreary day.. felt really crummy after school .. couldnt even smile properly..met up with carol, charm n mj in taka and walked around looking for stuff.. which resulted in me doing a whole lot of shopping!!!! retail therapy.. i tell u is really effective in making you feel a whole lot better.. but that precious feeling is oh so fleeting coz while i was feeling fine about jus about 4 hours ago.. im feeling super ugghh now again..anyway..got a pendant from perlinis.. and i finally bought the nike presto watch!!! =D i found the small one in glittery red!!!! couldnt resist it.. its such a darling =) got a new wallet from m)phosis too.. its a thin black one.. totally different from my old maroon quiksilver .. its not that i dont like the old one anymore.. i still think its nice but ive been using big bulky wallets for too long... changing wallets seems kinda insignificant but it means more than just shifting the coins and notes to another wallet..seriously.. the new ones smaller.. so this means no more of those nice small cards which i like to keep in my wallet.. even though i dont look at them all the time its just nice to know they're there.. had to pick on the 'official' cards too and there no place to display my neoprints anymore..really sad about the neoprints bit coz i couldnt even remove the ones in the old quiksilver properly.. they stuck on the tranparent plastic sheet n most of them got damaged.. changing for the better wasnt easy.. i had to sacrifice and let go... and it sucked..=P so yeah shopping works (for me at least) but when u eventually get the time to sit down and do nothing.. u cant help but start thinking of all your issues again and before u know it ur back to ur gloomy self in a matter of seconds...sigh.. got back chinese ao results today too.. was jus hoping to get at least d7 so tt i can drop chinese forever... got a c6... pretty crap result but since i was hoping for a d7 i should be glad tt i got a c6 right.. couldnt help but feel a little disappointed though.. shouldnt have felt tt way coz i didnt study it but i just did..guess no matter what we get we will always expect more of ourselves.. wonder how i'll be tomorrow..or rather later this morning...maybe it will be better.. but i seriously dont think so/dunno... anyway HaPpY bIrThDaY IvAn!!!!! my didi is 18 years old!!!!!!!!! he's older than me!!!!!!! ahahahaha Thing of the day!!!~ Brand: Nike