it suddenly struck me as i was revising my template just now that a lot of changes needed to be made to that whole pink portion about myself.. im 18 now and im not jus an ex-crescentian anymore... im also an ex-saint and an ex-odacer.. and after 2 years.. ive dreamt, drifted, and deluded myself.. have i finally seen the light? ... the answer is.. unfortunately, i think not. haha.. but anyway tts besides the point. the point is.. i suddenly felt a pang of sadness.. it never struck me to change those points until today when i looked through it and it made me realise that all these while i still consider myself a saint and an odacer? when i rewrote it, put it down in words and changed it permanantly, it made some sort of impact..just had a very =X kinda feeling lah.. mm 2004 retrospect.. ahh i know im delayed by almost a month now.. but very quickly..2004 was a milestone year. yea..definitely.. couple of important things which happened in 04..life, love, studies.. blahblah.. the As n everything.. i think ive grown up quite a lot after surviving what i think has been the most gruesome year ever..im stronger,wiser,and believe more than ever that anything is possible!! ..and i am now ready to take over the world!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha kk seriously..i mean i think after being through something like the As..i now know what i am capable of and believe it or not.. i miss studying!! hah i hope my results wont make me eat my words =X ..miss having the feeling of having something to work towards to..? maybe im just too bored from having too much leisure time on my hands now.. sit back and smell the roses while i still can ya.. yea im doing tt but u know, the grass is always greener on the other side. sometime ago.. when i was filling up the form from the driving center..u know those forms always ask u whats ur occupation and since im neither working nor studying...tt means im effectively unemployed and tt gave me a weird feeling too..yea anyway i put down tt im from jc. haha..so yea anyway.. im no longer unemployed..as previously stated.. and the latest news is..my boss may offer me a full time job at their office! yea well so tt may mean i'll have to do some admin stuff.. but hey!! i get to see the inner workings of an outdoor company like theirs! so u know next time i can set up my own outdoor company after learning all their trade secrets =D hahahaha.. oops.. i hope no one from e company sees this.. -"- today i learnt the importance of 10cents. yes 10cents. u see..it was like this.. this evening, i finally got my lazy butt moving and i went for a jog!!! din wana bring anything along so i put 5bux n 2keys into my pocket and went down.. had the intention of buying apple aloe vera n cheese on the way home but i forgot to actually think reallyy carefully about how much each would cost..anyway i also din hav any idea how much cheese costs.. so i went for the run.. the run by the way was so incredibly unimpressive.. its too embarassing to even mention the distance tt i managed to cover.. hahaha but its really been a very very long time since i last ran long distances (like 6months?!)and ive never been one for running long distances!! ..so i went to ntuc aft the run.. picked up the drink which was 2.20 and then when i saw the cheeses i suddenly felt like kicking myself..5bux wasnt gona be enough!! searched for the cheapest one avaliable and it was 2.90 -_-''' i considered going up to get more money but was feeling lazy.. =X so i went to the provision shop and thot i could buy my stuff there cos its a provision shop so u know since we're regulars maybe they'll give me the stuff w a discount.. unfortunately..they ran out of cheese =S so off i went back to ntuc and looked around for a smaller carton of the drink..but they din hav any!! they only had those for peel fresh juices and imo theres really no other apple aloe vera which compares to the fruit tree one. so i refused to grab the peel fresh one and i went back to the cheese section..to my greatest happiness..haha there was a 6slice packet of cheese for 2.15 =D so i happily bought my stuff and went back home. when my mum came back she saw tt i ate bread tt day and she deftly declared tt the remaining pieces wouldn be enough for my dads breakfast tomorrow and ordered me to go downstairs to buy another loaf of bread and at the same time i could buy her a carton of eggs as well. -_-' after much protestation to no avail, i went all the way down to buy the bread and eggs. as self consolation, i bought whatever else i felt like buying too. hah. with her money of course. im gonna make mashed potatoes tomorrow for lunch =D im excited =D we'll see how it goes =D hahah.. Thing of the day!!!~FOod: tuna n cheese sandwiches!

Greetings good people!!! ayee regrets that i didnt end the year with a proper post nor start it off with the most comprehensive one.. but i believe it was all rather inevitable, so not my fault. a couple of reasons that caused me to be unable to blog..mostly because of a lack of time and inspiration and um..time to sit myself down to blog and secondly because when i actually had time my monitor happened to be faulty so all i had was a blurry screen and tt was reason enough to not blog cos i didnt want to spoil my eyes further. hahah.. so now after ive got a spiffy new BENQ lcd monitor and i have a few moments to spare.. i think its quite timely tt i give this blog a good update..and i still wana do tt 2004 in retrospect post...mmm... anyways, im gonna start learning how to drive tomorrow morning!! basic theory tt is. lessons start at 950. and for the first time im gonna have to travel so far to get to school!..first time it'll take me more than 40mins to get to school and i'll even needa take the train to get there.. a double period followed by lunch break then another double period..well k its not exactly a double period but the length of time per class is almost equivilent so yea hence the parallel. havent had lessons or for tt matter studied for so long..i wonder hows it gonna feel tomorrow.. hahaha maybe it'll be exactly how it always was..tts is i nornally start feeling sleepy 15mins or less into the lesson. hahhah nostelgic feeling i suppose. its been about slightly more than a month since i stopped studying not that long actually ahh.. when we were still in school.. perhaps there were times when we didnt study for more than a month even? hah.. well well.. exciting times ahead.. just hope the lesson isnt that boring and i'll pass the tests with flying colours and i can move on to the real learning of how to drive a car.. and after that.. im off to my first job!!! yess!! im finally past tt stage where im a little rolling stone slacking doing nothing..neither studying nor working..effectively making me an UNEMPLOYED person. gee how bad that word sounds ah.. somehow.. not exactly gona earn big bucks here but at least im gona be doing something i think i find rather intersting..in comparison to being an admin personnel..im gonna be a camp facilitator/trainer/instructor! whatever u wana call it.. rather familiar with the stuff tts gonna be done at these camps cos of past experience in odac and all.. so yea have a pretty nice job going there for me.. mm do feel a little anxious about the first job though.. after all its gona be real kids.. not just new j1s in ur cca..hahaha.. not tt im saying they the j1s wernt real people but this is commercial now u know.. ur like an obs instructor!!! if its even ok to compare myself to thee obs instructor.. haha..but i mean like these are real peoples lifes' ur gonna affect! people remember their sec2 camps and they remember their instructors! well i believe you would want them to remember you..impact them in a meaningful way and all!..oh and in a good way that is so yea.. i hope i do a good job.. mm doing this camp for seal sports .. under innotrek as well.. hope they have enough camps to keep me occupied enough cos if not im gonna regret turning down outdoors in asia and not even listening to them cos i cut them off too fast cos i wasnt thinking when they called cos i was sleeping at that point in time. and i'll have to eat humble pie and call them up and ask them if they're still intersted to even consider me. hrumps..which btw.. i wonder how did the saints adventure guy go in finding out if i can be employed by them from his boss cos they only employ people 21 yrs of age and im only 18. hahaha.. well yea thats about it for now i think..cant manage the retrospective post now at 230 am..its bedtime cos i have school tomorrow.. haha.. oh yeah one more thing.. ayee twelvey people!! sorry i didnt go for the thingy at dawns house..din reply cos i was in msia when i got the msg so ya =X ... mm hahaha but i'll be there on sat!! =D and and another thing..!! i got to be a model today!!! pre-teen dream come true? hahaha sams makeup manniquin.. got a high fashion look with a high fashion hairstyle.. hahh the hairstyle was q hilarious man.. hehheh >.< Thing of the day!!!~ Date: 20Jan!!!

you know how sometimes you click on a particular artist which you only have one song of on your windows media player in the middle of the night just cos u want to hear that song, the player then plays that song and when its over the room becomes strangely quiet after that. its an uncomfortable kinda quiet and you dont want to leave it tt way. you soon go back to the player and play the songs from the all songs list so that the music wont stop again so tt there wont be a void in between anymore. maybe you dont.. but life right nows exactly like that. a pause..quiet nothingness after a long long song.a song with loud and soft bits.. fast and slow bits.. i finally have a pause before i play the next song. its neither good nor bad but one things certain.. i dont know what song to play next.. and tts not exactly the best feeling in the world. Thing of the day!!!~jelly beans in pretty tins! =D