recent spout down in the dumps. rejection does happen. maybe its just happening now more than usual to make up for all the times when things have always gone smoothly for me. got crap marks for my first physics test, got even crappier marks for genetics. din get a part in the ormond play. got rejected for a job at college even when there was a 50/50 chance of getting it and i thought i did the intereview as well as the others. shit man. shot down to reality and reality sucks. Thing of the day: nothing lah

camp was funfunfun!!! very different from all the other camps that i've ever been to cos this was a free and easy camp, do whatever you want whenever u want as opposed to running to keep the schedule every minute!!! din get to do kiteboarding in the end, lol, cos the main thing i wanted to try out was kiteboarding..but got to do a fair bit of windsurfing and sailing, tho i must admit, im probably still rather hopeless at either..longer recap n pics later maybe.. now, i need either an osim chair or a boyfriend.. haha Thing of the day!!!~the night sky at rye!! i could actually see the entire milky way!!phhwwaaa totally cool man!

significant things definitely blog worthy has happened sometime over the past week..but ive got no time to elaborate cos time is short when ive got a physics tests on weds and a psychology lab report due on thursday!! first up-last weds i got locked into my room.yes locked into my room because my door knob mechanism broke and the lock wouldn retract when i turned the handle. it was quite a big fiasco with quite a few people getting involved in my rescue and i believe i might make my first ormondian mention because of it.lol. second up-i went for my first singing lesson today!! it was quite fun =D i like singing!!!! third up-im going for a camp by the beach this weekend and im gona go kiteboarding!!!!how exciting!!!!! fourth up-isnt this song so nice..totally my kind of song =) found it by chance really.. its called beg your pardon by josh pyke i keep getting these cravings nowadays..i wanted dumplings then i wanted sushi then i wanted soup noodles then i wanted fishballs n curry puffs..aargghh its driving me nuts!!! Thing of the day!!!~my sandwich that i make for myself. white bread smothered with cream cheese,ham,pineapple,mushrooms,cheese,salami white bread smothered with cream cheese. toasted. mmmmmmmmmmmm

Update on life. sigh.. i think im homesick now..cos the other day..during a psychology lecture after a particularly looonngg day..i couldn concentrate on the lecture at all.and the lecture was actually kinda hard cos the topic now is behavorial neuroscience, and the lecture was on biology of the brain. tough shit that i've never learnt before. but i just couldn concentrate..and i started thinking of my mum's noodles and i had a craving for it..then it progressed to dandan mian..cos tt one is more achievable..then i decided...i not gonna have crappy college food for dinner tonight!i want dandan mian!! so i told amanda and we went to chinatown for noodles and xiao long bao for dinner. =D sigh..these days i feel like i wana do lots of stuff here..to you know, to make my time here more fruitful.. but its hard to actually go out and do things..cos of things like, the date is just not suitable, costs money (lots), who to go with, are the people organising it reliable, and will the activity be worth what you're paying for...things that i feel like doing include going sailing with the uni windsurfing club this sunday, going natural rockclimbing at the Grampians, going kiteboarding..you get the idea..outdoorsyish stuff. i wana do something extreme!!!but then im afraid to go out and do it too! i worry about all sorts of things..maybe i should jus forget about worrying and just go do things myself!!!!but i dont want to do things myself..the last thing you wana feel is alone and looserish cos u got no friend with you. lol. i look back at the odac days and i wonder where my odac self has gone to. its so different as compared to back in jc..i mean we were really sheltered and that made things so easy. everything is structured and organised and you know it is.people you can trust, trips that are going to be good and safe.plus, membership to odac was FREE. damnit every club you wana join in uni, you gota pay for it!arghhhhh..that means if u join a club you should try to do as much stuff with them as possible to make ur membership fee worth it. but like what if you discover you dont like their style after one activity? the way things are run here are very very different. i hate to say this, but it is hard to connect to the aussie aussies. culturally, we're just so so different and its hard to become good friends with someone whos so culturally different. conversation is superficial. and its hard to go beyond that superficial depth. anyways, this is just rant.trying to dispel weird depressing feelings that's been lingering around for the past few days.. i think that homesickness comes upon me just about 2weeks after ive left home cos last semester i think i remember feeling miserable around after the same time..maybe i'll feel better when more work piles up and im too busy to feel homesick.lol. anyway ive conscientiously been keeping up to work in my aim to attain all H1s this semester. lol. fyi for those who dont, im taking a physics subject. and fyi for those who dont. i didnt even do physics in O levels. all this in the prospect of maybe switching to vet science next year. which brings me to my next cause of confusion. should i really switch?is that really what i want?what do i really want? dont know about you guys but after sec sch, i didnt know what i wanted to be and so, go jc do science cos after that can do anything you want and got 2more years to decide.and also cos i decided i like science more definitely. after A levels, still dont know what i wana do. prelim results crap like shit so dont even need to bother about getting predicted grades to get early entry to uni. so got 3months more to (not) think about what i want. then A level results released and i had to decide. since my grades wernt fantastic, tt ruled out a couple of choices. lol. so the natural flow of things resulted in me choosing a course which is a totally natural choice for me.. Bachelor of Science.and the most annoying thing is, i still dont know what im going to do with a BSci deg!!! which makes me wana switch to vet sci cos im planning to major in zoology and zoology is to vet as biomed is to med isnt it. lol. apologies to all the biomed students out there. but the question and the main and important point here is is that what i want to do?! and so, i naturally do what i do and i make contingency for both switching to vet and remaining in science by taking whatever prereqs for vet, making sure that my BSci majors arent affected at the same time and i let my results at the end decide for me. but of course, i'll be studying to get all H1s so that i'll keep my options open. lol ( sidenote: i kinda hate that phrase actually cos i get too much shit because they want me to keep my options open!!!!urgghhhh.. but for a different context. makes my life so damn hard. ugghh..i hate it!!!! ) and if i dont get in, i'll say that it wasnt meant to be. just like how i wasnt meant to be in med or law. i signed up for singing lessons in uni. paid $135 for 8 lessons to discover my singing voice. haha. not outdoorsyish but i think it'll be fun cos i like singing!!!! hehhehhh.. and since ive not been trained before this will be an experience =D Thing of the day!!!~ ocf today =)

Sydney day 4!!!!! hahaha i know this post is way way way overdue..but to tie up any loose ends left behind, i am going to complete the sydney series now! by day 4, me n dear wins were completely drained of energy. we watched this lesbian flick called imagine me and you. the main character was played by piper perabo, who if you dont remember played the main character in coyote ugly. i dont believe singapores playing this movie. lol. anyways on a side note, this flick was produced by focus features, the same people who made the gay cowboy movie. haha. the movies quite good lah. 4/5 stars. its quite emotional, made me cry quite a bit. and thats saying something cos i dont cry easily at movies!!but then again, ive found that im more emotional these days than compared to say a couple of months ago.. sigh.. then we went on a ghost tour at night!!!!went for the tour because its something i've always thought of doing, but have not had the chance to before. but then, it wasnt scary at all lah. the tour guide was too funny, always making jokes n poking fun at things.lol. hahaha but it still was an experience. the tour guide was good and rather engaging with his ghost stories. i'd say tho, if ur really looking for some scary shit..you'd be better off watching a horror flick by yourself in your house at night with all the lights off. hehheh.. pics from the ghost tour..maybe someone will spot something that i didnt. nothing right..haha cheh bluff people one..